Pet Peeves....

Okay, as the day has progressed little things keep getting on my nerves so I am going to try to "flush" the bad vibes and write down my pet peeves on here !!!

( in no particular order )

1. People who use ALL CAPS when they are emailing me...Come on people, we all know that is the equivalance of yelling at someone over the computer. Also, if you ARE going to yell at me and you personally know me, then pick up the damn phone or better yet do it in person !!!

2. People who wear navy with black... ack ack and double ack !! I am sorry, but those colors DO NOT match, nor do they even blend. If you can't tell that you put on black pants accidentally with your navy top then it is time to change the light bulbs in the closet !!! ( I also think I am sensative to this considering I was forced to match my dad's black and navy blue socks from the time I could tell colors !! )

3. People NOT communicating when in fact our relationship demands that we communicate !! For example, today at work I was told that our custom DB homes were going into a new accounting software...ummm, lets see, I am the accounting manager...think they should have told me??? I DO !!!

4. People who assume that petite women can eat whatever they want b/c they are petite.... ummm, I am small because I DON'T eat that crap !!


There is more to come I am sure... This is all I can think of at this EXACT moment !!

My 3 a.m convo with a 4 yr old....

Yep, you read it right... okay, so I was EXHAUSTED last night and fell asleep watching the news. Off to dreamland I went. ( oh and if you know how jacked up my sleep has been lately, me falling asleep before 10:30 is as rare as my kids going 20 minutes without tattling or fighting !! )

So, I am peacefully asleep then all of a sudden I feel a nudge. I open my eyes and see Rae. CRAP !!! Here is our conversation that followed.

ME: Rae, what's wrong, why aren't you in bed?
RAE: I CCCCCCCCCAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNN'TTTTTTTTTTT Sleep in there, it is tooooooooo scary.
ME: Rae, you need to get back in bed mommy is sleeping.
RAE: I want to get in bed with yoooooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!
( if you haven't figured it out yet, all the drawn out words are her whining, yes WHINING at 3 in the morning !!!! )
ME: No, you know you are not allowed to get in Mommy and Daddy's bed. ( OKay, some of you might be thinking that I am mean mommy about this, but( and this might be TMI LOL )Chris sleeps in the buff and well it is inappropriate as far as I can tell for a 4 yr old to be in the bed with that being the case )
RAE: PPPPPPPPPPPPPLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEE ( hey, at least she used some manners while whining )
ME: Look Rae, you can go get on the couch, in bed with your brother, or back into your bed. I don't care, but mommy is going back to sleep.

I wait a second and see her contemplating her options.

RAE: But sleeping on the couch scares me now and BBBBBBUUUUUUUUBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBAAAAAAAAAAAAA won't move over for me to get in his bed. Hey Mommy, you know what? ( CRAP CRAP Triple CRAP !! When Rae says "you know what?" then she has a LOT on her mind and she can go on forever!! )
ME: Ummm, Rae, I am not having a "you know what" converstation right now. It is late.
RAE: But mommy, I want to tell you about my dream... there were these girls and they were....
ME: Seriuosly RAE, you can tell me about your dreams tomorrow. Better yet, go back to bed and keep dreaming good dreams.
RAE: But, I CAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNTTTTTTTTTTT !!! I am aaaaaaaffffffrrrrrraaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiddddddddddd!! I want to sleep with yyyyyyyyooooooooouuuu!!!
Whatever Rae, all I know is that you are not getting in here. Figure something out.
RAE: BBBBBBBBBBBBBUUUUUUUUUUUTTTTTTTTTT IIIIIIIIIII'MMMMMMMMMMMM SSSSSSCCCCCCCCCAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDD !!!! ( that would be But I'm Scared all drawn out and dramatic )
ME: That sounds like a personal problem Rae, Mommy is done talking and I am going to sssssssssssssllllllllllleeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppppppppppp. Go find somewhere to sleeeeepppppp!!!!! ( at this point I am broken down to whining also and I am contemplating waking her Daddy up and telling him to finish the conversation !! )

I close my eyes and hear walk off. Yes, mission accomplished !! Finally, back to sleep !! I had no clue where she had decided to go back to sleep at. As long as it was in the locked compound of my house I really didn't care !!

Fast forward to this morning... I had to be at work by 6 so I was trying to be quiet and keeps light to a minumum. Needless to say, I go into the living room to see her sleeping on the couch. I won I won I won !!!!!!!! I swear this girl is going to be the death of me !!!!! Her brother has always slept like an angel, she however power sleeps ( in like 3-4 hour shifts ) and it drives me NUTS !!!!

Little League Heaven...

Yes, I am in little league heaven !! Folks, it has been 6 straight days of little league world series games, and there is only more to come. Seriuously, I could watch this all day long !! Ryan lays on the couch with me and we discuss pitching strategies, batting stances, how all the lefties are playing ( he is a lefty so of course he is intrigued by other lefties ). Anyway, I LOVE this time of year....almost as much as Christmas !!

Right now we are watching Mexico vs. Venezuela. Mexico is an amazing little team. I going to call it now that I think Mexico and Lubbock will end up in the finals. Call it a hunch !!

Trying to be better...

I am trying to be better about updating the blog this week. Things have calmed down a little at work. I have gotten used to getting here at 6:15-6:30 every morning. If anyone knows me then they know that I am NOT a morning person so most people around here know not to talk to me until about 9:00.

Ryan starts baseball practice with the Legends today. I can't wait to see how that one goes. All the kids on the team are really good. I think Jared's mom is going to try pitching. This should be very funny. When she was over at the house on Sunday for the cook out we had Ryan's pitching net set up and she was "pitching" into it. She was doing really good !! Want to know the catch??? She had been drinking. We are thinking that we will start a Legends tail-gating ( did I just spell that right? ) before every game !! LOL If you know anything about the rents on the team, then you would know that we would win in a drinking contest every time. Shoot, half the team works for Houston Distributing ( Miller Lite here in Houston). So, we have that tonight. Maybe I will take the kids swimming afterwards. Swimming is always good for wearing them out before bed.

I know...I know...

It has been too long since I have updated this. I am sorry, but things just got crazy hectic.

My company got bought out a little over a week ago, which means that they streamlined. Luckily, the president is able to still have 100% full control of the company. The person who bought out the company just wants financial control.
Luckily my job is 100% safe... however it is too safe. I had to take over a couple departments and it has me on the edge of a nervous breakdown. I am mangaging the marketing, advertising, and accounting depts of the company now. I have been going into work at 6 every morning just so that I can stay caught up. It has been CRAZY. However, when I get stressed a couple of things happen. The first... I can't sleep. I have issues sleeping as it is, but this just impounds the problem. I have been getting about 3-4 hrs a night MAX right now of sleep. The second thing is that is terribly hard to eat. I have to force myself to stay energized with lots of protein and healthy foods. I am hoping this is a temporary issue at work. I love my company and I will not find another job. They treat me awesome and value that my family comes before them. I can't ask for anything better than that. Okay, enough said on the negative things.

So, is everyone here in the houston area ready for Hurricane Dean? Chris wanted me to stock up on water, batteries, gas, etc... I said yes to the other stuff....but gas???? Ummmm, after learning my lesson during Rita, I am not going anywhere !!

When you grow up in this area you just learn to embrace these storms and pray for the best !!

Last night was our monthly bunco night. It was a blast !!!! I love those girls. We played for a little bit, chatted it up as usual, drank our drink of choice, and then hit up a bar. Unfortunatley, once we got to the bar I started to feel yucky. The stomach in knots and the stress started creeping back in. So, I went home early. Still, I had sooooo much fun !!!

Today I am cleaning house...ummm, well I wil be when I get off the computer. The kids are supposed to be cleaning their rooms, but I am not sure how that is going. Maybe I can sneak the kids to the pool before it starts pouring.

Anyway, I will try to be better about updating the blog this week.

Kid Free Weekend...

The thought of a kid free weekend brought thoughts of fun times and wild night... bwa ha ha was I wrong ! The kids left on Thursday morning so I went and had drinks with my girls... Ummm, always a fun times... darts, awkward turtles, goals in life, etc etc !! LOL I guess you had to be there to understand. Anyway, I was supposed to go out dancing Friday, but I was feeling yucky and tired from Thursday night. I cuddled up on the couch and watched 4 hrs of the little league world series regional comp ( yes i know i am a huge giant little league dork for doing this !! LOL ) I slept all alone in my big ole bed and got to sleep late. I literally layed on the couch and watched yet more little league. I went to dinner with Todd and Gretchen. Gretchen is due next weekend so I am ready for her to pop that little baby out !! I can't wait to meet baby Emma.
My throat had started to get a little scratchy yesterday, but I woke up today feeling like I had gotten run over by a freight truck. I have watched movies all day. So, my kid free weekend turned into a t.v loving little league baseball fest. Hmmm, actually I probably needed it to chill out. I tend to be on edge a lot these days.

I wish I had some funny quips and such, but I don't considering i still feel like crap. I am excited to see my kiddos and kiss and hug them again !!

Ryan should start practice with the Legends this week. I am excited to get him back into the baseball groove. I had DVR'd all the games from the weekend so that he can watch them. There are some amazing teams on there.

Anyway, I will get all the kids stories from this weekend and post them tomorrow.

la dee da...

I am sitting here updating my blog as the kids are "supposed" to be taking a shower and getting ready for bed. Truthfully, I think they are playing in their rooms, but at least they are not fighting. Chris had softball games tonight, so it is just me and the kids !! Chris woke up on the wrong side of the bed today and has been in a foul mood all day long. It is probably a good thing that he is doing "guy" things tonight. However, with all the fishing and softball going on lately I am thinking that a girls happy hour is soon in order. Hmmm, yep, I won't have the kids on Thursday ( they are going to g'mas), there it will be happy hour time for sure !!
Decision made.

What else? Hmmm, still loving the new job. I am soooo busy, but that is a good thing !! Like I said Rae and Ryan are going to their grandma's Thursday-Sunday. I am nervous b/c Rae has never been away from me that long. I think she is going to freak out truthfully. Oh well, if it gets too bad we can always go to get her on Saturday. I am sure we will do some fun things while we are kidless. Who knows, after this weekend g-ma might get them more often !! Ummm, PROBABLY NOT !!

Well, time to get the kids in bed. ( yes, they do go to bed at 7:30 some nights )

Park Pics...

We were at the park and I got some pics. The kids had a blast. We had a picnic, played, explored trails and watched the ducks and squirrels.

There are lots of pics !!!













Ryan looks real thrilled huh?

I am pissed...

Tonight has been crappy. My feelings are out of whack and I am just down right pissed.

First of all, Chris got into a screaming match with the ump of Ryan's last game of the season and got himself thrown out. Okay, what kind of grown man fights with a teenager about 7U little league? I am pissed that he does not have enough self control to keep his mouth shut. It embarrasses me, Ryan and my whole family. I was so upset that I couldn't even go to Ryan's end of season party. I feel bad for missing it, but I will make sure that Ry knows that I am proud of him. However, I feel that a point needs to be made to Chris that I WILL NOT in any fashion support his decision to open his mouth and keep ranting. I do not know how to get it across that the world is not all about him. We were already winning by a lot and Chris goes and ruins it.


Okay, time to go calm down.

Time for a change...

Well, Ryan tried out for the select little league team and made it this weekend. He is now a Legend. It will be sad to say good-bye to the storm, but it is a needed break.

Like I said, tryouts were this morning and then I went and met up with a bunch of moms that I have met online through the gymboree forum. We had a blast. The kids played and the moms got to sit around and visit.











I am not going to post pics of the other kids there since this blog isn't totally private, but here is some of Rae.


Toodles for now !!

Holy marketing job batman....

Ummmm, WTH , I haven't blogged in about 4 days. That is how busy I have been in my new position. I am busy all 9 hours, and I am loving every bit of it. We are getting the adobe creative suite so that we can bring about 80% of adveritising in house and moi gets to do it. That means more work, but more of doing what I love.

Tonight is Ryan's last game with the storm. If all goes well on Saturday, then he will be part of the Legends. ( which is a true AA Little League team ).

finally...

I am now in marketing full time. No more accounting !!! I am so excited. Hmmm, so it has been a few days since I have updated, but not a lot has happened.

I cleaned out the kids closets this weekend. Whoa, every time I do that it is a huge reality check. So, I tried on Rae's stuff from last winter. The size 4 pants will work for fall, but I don't think they will last much past that. I have like 5 pairs of 4 Slim and although they are REALLY cute on her, she really has to suck in to button them. So, those are goners. Anyway, I am taking 2 bags of clothes to Once Upon a Child in hopes that they will take about 1/8 of the clothes ( those people are SOOOO picky !! ). The rest I will put on craigslist. I do not have time to bother with ebay.
Anyway, so she has one drawer that is full of shorts sleeve shirts. We ran out of room so we had ot hang the rest. She has another drawer that is full of shorts. Then we have a shelf that is full of 4 stacks of pants, a shelf that is full of pajamas, a shelf that is full of long sleeve shirts, a drawer that is full of panties and bathing suits, and a shelf that is full of sweat shirts... ummm, this is without me fall shopping at all. Plus, we have one side of her closet that is full of dresses and the other side is full of "outfits" of some sort.
Ryan's isn't much better. Those children are swimming in clothes. However, I will still have to buy Rae and Ryan fall/winter clothes b/c they are quickly outgrowing last years.

So, I got their closets clean and organized along with their dressers. Plus, I got about 3/4 of all my laundry done and PUT AWAY !! That is a major accomplishment with me !! I hate putting away clothes and we have a habit of living out of laundry baskets, but I did it !! Plus, I scrubbed my kitchen from top to bottom, mopped all my floors ( except for my bathroom ), that will be Tuesday's venture !!

We bought the movie "Bridge to Tarebithia" for the kids. That movie is soooo good. I cried in it, just like I did when I took the kids to see it at the movies.

I took the kids swimming a few times this weekend. Truthfully, there wasn't much else to do. Sorry I haven't taken any recent pictures. Maybe in the next few days :)

My MLB crush is retiring...

You heard right. I am in lust with Craig Biggio. After Sep 30th I will no longer be able to watch him play :( Ryan idolizes him and well, I think he is amazingly talented and really hot. I guess he has paid his dues to the Astros and it is time for him to enjoy some family time. WHATEVER !! With this being said, I am SUPER excited to go to the Astros game tonight. We are going with the GHBA ( Greater Houston Builder Association ) . There is nothing better than sitting on the sidelines of a baseball game, drinking a bud light and munching on some stale nachos. I keep hearing that David Beckham is suppose to make soccer huge in America.... oh huh.. I'll believe it when I see it. Personally I think America is way too obsessed with baseball and football to give soccer a chance. Ryan plays soccer, but it bores the hell out of me. We let him play b/c he loves it, but I don't get butterflies in my stomach as we drive up to the soccer field. I do with baseball !! Oh Monday I will finally be out of accounting for good. I will be back in the marketing game full time. We have a new sales and marketing director who is an absolute riot. I created the collateral piece for our new realtor program. I am excited that I will be seeing some of my photography and layout work in print. It will be published in some realtor magazines and such. It is this picture

Here is the maketing piece I created from it... pretty cool huh? I am excited that I did all the work myself. I came up with the concept and created this !! I love being in marketing...I really do !!

Well, off to start my day and finish this week in accounting. I need to read perezhilton.com after this so I can get my daily fix of the crazy-ass celebrity whack jobs. Seriously...what happened to the cute little red head in The Parent Trap? What is it with rehab these days? I remember when I was about 16 and Drew Barrymore went to rehab. She went quietly, came out clean and sober and has made an amazing career for herself. What happened to those good ole days when rehab was truly rehab and not some publicity stunt for these spoiled brats? Oh and who else is waiting to see what Brittney will do next? THat is a girl who I would love to sit down and talk with just to see what wacked out things comes out of her mouth. How much of a trainwreck can you really be?

A lot ot say...

Okay, so last night I go to jump in the shower about 9:00. I wash my face, get undressed and ugh... sometimes I really hate what stares back at me in the mirror. Don't we all at times? So, I get in the shower and I start thinking that instead of disliking what I see that maybe I should look at it in a different light. So I want that super tight flat stomach right? Well, I would probably have one had I not had my two kids and we all know I wouldn't change that in for the world. I would love to have nice perky C cups, and I could afford to get those if I didn't have to pay 1000K a month in childcare. Would I change that? I wish I could change the high childcare part, but I know it is a part of how we run our family. I would love to have super tight non- cellulite legs, but I know that I am 28 years old and it comes with the territory in my family. The little stretch marks on the side of my hips... well those are my battle wounds from my pregnancies. That reminds me that I once had life inside of me and that I nourished and protected my innocent children until they were strong enough to make it in this world.

I am still not 100% happpy with my body and if anybody knows me they know I never will be. Some people have alcohol addictions, gambling addictions, etc... and I forever will have food and body issues. I have learned to deal with them through the years, but I don't know if I will ever have a "normal" relationship with food. I eat healthy, stay active and give myself a treat now and then and I do this because I know I have to. I know that all it would take is one huge step backwards and I would go spiraling back into old way. My life is so crazy hectic that I would love to have that control over my life, but I know for myself, friends, family, husband and mainly my kids that I cannot and will not ever do that.

That is why I think it is a harder for me to love my body. I love my inner self. I really do. I think that I have amazing compassion for people and for life in general. I have a short fuse and I still throw a tantrum here and there, but generally I am a great person. I hold all my friends on pedestals. I love my husband dearly. I hold my family so close to my heart and would do anything for my parents, sisters, nieces, nephews, etc... I would die for my kids. Those two beings are my world. Without them I don't know if I could love myself. I think it took those two souls to finally complete mine. But like I said, I love the person that I am. I am forgiving when I have been mad. I think I give great advice and I will just listen when that is all I need to do. I think I have a sense of humor that has evolved over the years and I just love the feeling of a good deep belly laugh !! I will continue to work on loving the outer self. To all my friends and family who read this blog, thank you for helping me accomplish and work towards that goal !!