A different kind of hurt....

We told the kids today.... I thought my heart had felt pain before, but until a six year old little boy curls up into your body sobbing because his heart is broken then you will truly never know pain. Those eyes and face that are the spitting image of mine looked back at me with so much heartache and confusion. I wish I could fix everything in his world right now but I can't. I know that in time his world, although different will become right again. I want the people that are around him to remember how much this little boy is hurting and that he didn't ask for this. He may be different for a little bit, but I know Ry will see that he has a mother and father who love him with their whole heart and soul and that everything will be okay.

I do not mean to leave Rae out of this. She just doesn't understand it all. The adjustment will probably be easier for her. She has a different spirit than Ry and she tends to see only rainbows and unicorns ( so to speak ). Her world is always fine and dandy. Of course we will show her as much as we always have and more so. The same with Ry.

I know this post is heavy, but this blog is about my life. My life IS heavy right now. For my friends and family who have offered their love and support I thank you. It means the world to me right now. Now I just have to fix my children's world.